For me, it’s not who I am now, so it doesn’t really feel bad to me. I think it was an important part of the story for everyone to be able to voice what it was like at that time. The book includes feedback from various people, but what stands out is your sister’s overview, which is brutally honest about the relationship between you and her feelings about your behaviour. So if you’re in pain and it’s from unresolved issues, it’s a pretty fucking wonderful thing until the monkey gets on your back and you can’t get it off. But, y’know, I think it all starts out as: “Hey, I’m going to check this out, I’m going to try it.” And it’s the greatest painkiller in the world. And what you do is say: “Well Keith Richards’s looks like a pretty good role model, and so does Johnny Thunders.” And the next thing you know you’ve become that person.Īre you saying that you took heroin to emulate your role models? I’m like a cliché for drug addiction: dysfunctional childhood, angry teenager, no type of parental role models. They probably don’t want to get any closer.ĭo you look back on your life and see that you were an addict waiting happen?Ībsolutely! It fits like a glove. So through us is probably as close as they can get.

Most people don’t live the way we chose to live, or die, however you want to describe it. I think it’s the same fascination they have with anything destructive. Why do you think the public are so fascinated by drugs and addiction? Open up and say aah! Sixx and DJ Ashba as SIXX:AM live in San Francisco (Image credit: Getty Images) I’ve kept diaries forever and I still do. Because yes, it’s set in ’86/’87, but how did we get there? That’s the question.Well, I guess I really had to peel the onion to see that in this book.ĭid you keep diaries before the period documented in the book? So I wanted to open up that very private moment and then have people – the band mates, other musicians, record company executives, ex-girlfriends, my mother, my grandfather, my sister – come in on top of my stuff and tell the complete story. The reason that journals and diaries have locks on them is because no one is supposed to read them. That stream-of-consciousness of honesty, or even dishonesty.

It’s about my relationship with pen and paper. It felt like a nice closure to a time in my life as well. The other is that I can raise awareness for a charity that I’m involved in called Covenant House, and Running Wild In The Night, which is a music programme in there. One is that I wanted to draw attention to addiction and try and paint a success story at the end of it of it.

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